pro·cras·ti·nate - /prəˈkrastəˌnāt/ : To put off doing something, especially out of habitual carelessness or laziness.

So this is what i am currently suffering with at the moment a real bad case of procrastination!!!!!! I know I've always had this problem all throughout high school and college, I thought it would be something i would out grow, but sadly i was wrong. It seems the opposite has happened, as time goes on I get better at  procrastination and i keep trying to push the limits, one day I'm gonna push the limits to far... but that day has not happened yet thank heavens lol... I move next Saturday and you wanna know how much i have packed ???? NOT A THING!! I really should start now, but we all know that probably isnt going to happen. I mean it's not like i haven't tried, it's just that...

1. packing sucks ( doesn't matter where your going)

2. I have a lot of stuff mixed with laziness equals i just don't wanna pack lol

and lastly....

3. distractions!!!!! I know at some point everyone gets effected by this lol You start off packing/organizing and then you find something that you either thought you lost or totally forgot you had and you take a few moments to go down memory lane and text everyone who remembers it and you guys talk for a while about the past and all the good memories and end up side tracked talking about something unrelated to the object you found.

Or you have music playing while you're packing and you find a song you really like and you start dancing and singing to it and as it ends you start to go back to packing but then here comes another good song and the cycle continues

Or when your on your computer trying to find a good station on pandora you get "distracted" with other websites... like FB you think im just gonna check it really quick and then 30 min later and your still on it or Pinterest man that website just sucks you in and you don't even realize 2 hours have gone by lol

   .... and thats when it happens your distracted you can get caught be any of these traps and by the time you realize it .... its TOO LATE

So those are my reasons partnered with procrastination of why i haven't packed... Don't you feel bad for me now lol jk jk i have everything working against me lol BUT don't worry i'm strong i will beat this procrastination one way or another... i mean i kinda have to, i move next week EEKKKK so crazy gotta get my butt into gear NOW 

HELLO BLOGGER WORLD!!!!

Hello Blog readers IM HERE, How are ya!!! Well as you probably will find out, I'm pretty new at this whole blogging thing, it's been on my bucket list for a while now and i know a lot of people that blog, so i thought hey why not give this a try and check something off my bucket list... i have never really had a blog because I didn't really know what to say, someone once told me just to write my thoughts, what ever came to my mind ha ha hah for those who really know me thats probably not a safe thing to do. i can be pretty random and make absolutely no sense. Half the time i have so many thoughts its hard to sort through them all lol  but here goes nothing!

So it is finally starting to hit me that I'm growing up (technically I am a GROWN UP). It’s so weird to say that. Growing up and becoming an adult was always something I had dreamed about but not something that I ever really thought would happen. When I was little I would think sure I guess one day I’ll be in high school, then college and graduate from both, get a job and one day get married and have a family. Those things were like dreams way off in the distance, something that I was never going to reach. I guess a part of me just thought I was always going to be little; it was hard for me to grasp the fact that whether I wanted to or not I was going to grow up. Time just flew by.

Right now I am finished with high school, Collage, just got Certified as a Medical Assistant, and I’m making the big move—IM MOVING TO IDAHO It’s so scary! I'm entering into the big scary world of being an adult. I now have a lot more responsibility, hard times, stress, but also a lot more fun Part of me is so excited!!! it’s like a dream come true. This dream is no longer a foggy image in the distance, then there’s the other part of me that’s scared, who is trying to desperately to hold on to the past, back when I was little and everything was easy. Back when my parents make everything OK.

Even though part of me doesn't want to grow up, I believe enough of me does! (Thank heavens can’t live at home my whole life lol) And enough of me is willing to accept all the challenges that being an adult will have, and I will always have my family and friends helping me get through the tough times, to help me not  take life to seriously,  to jog my memory of my amazing past! And to remind me that my dreams are coming true!

Well here I am blogger world! I’m taking the leap into the darkness and moving to Idaho, hopefully getting a job and fully becoming  and embracing the fact that I am a... do I dare say it … a GROWN UP and i hope to use this blog to help me get through this big scary adult world, I am going to post  my experiences in the big scary world, hoping that either you ( blog readers) or me will read this stories and laugh, cry, be angered or learn something helpful to better our lives in the future .... Wish me luck!